jardin jirda 6

This picture is for you dear.

He's a liar, a player and he's good at it.

I pity his fiancée. His bride to be.

I pity all the girls that fell for him.

And I pity myself for being among those girls who did.

He is still a blogger and his writings are adored by many.

The end of the jardin jirda series.

I'm glad I'm not part of his life anymore and I'm glad it only took me only a few months to totally fall out of love with him. And I'm glad I learnt a lot on how to overcome scandals on the net.

Lesson number one. 
If you are involved with another blogger, NEVER blog about it or hint that you are! Lest you want to be discovered. Wakaka.

Lesson number two.
It's so easy to fall in love with a person you NEVER met by just the simple corresponding method of YM'ing, facebook and webcam'ing. Sometimes it works out. Sometimes it doesn't but the best thing to do is to MEET upfront! Know the person in flesh.

NEVER trust a person you never met in flesh!

Lesson number three.
Do not get easily worked up with a blogger who might or might not be interested with you. This person might be playing with you.

Enough with the lessons. =)

PS: Aku mungkin sampai rumah pada malam ini. Till then bye!

jardin jirda 5

Something happened.

His friend died and he was somewhat in an emotional state that I couldn't comfort him. My mood was as bleak as his when my messages were ignored and he wasn't online anymore.

There was a big hole between our friendship during that time. I felt guilty for not being able to comfort him when he was grieving and I seldom blamed myself for being foolish.

But when he did overcome this grieving period and went back to his normal online activities including blogging, I managed to ask him why ignore my messages?

He simply said he never received them.

And I was like........... wadehel?

Something was amiss.

It stroke a warning chord in my head and I became a stalker. Keeping tabs on who and which blog he frequented. Crazy? Yes. Now I know how crazy a person becomes when he or she wants to find some answers to many unanswered questions in the mind.

I kept myself busy.

Online applications such as the stats counter and visitor detector helped me keep tabs on the people who visited his blog. And I also knew who he visited as well.

The comments from other bloggers especially females on his blog gave many clues on who he was involved with offline besides blogging and ym'ing.

Some of the suspects were added on my facebook account to help me investigate further. Hehehe.

More shockingly, he has two yahoo accounts in which he'd use to chat to two different ym groups. One ym id was for his group of blogger friends which consist mostly of girls and the other ym id for his friends in real life.

I managed to have a friend (or two, or maybe three?.. hik hik hik) to add his ym id that were strictly for bloggers.

Judging from the way he treated my friends (in disguise) was like a flirtatious guy who seemed nice, funny and caring.

I was flabbergasted. My friends were shocked. He was a natural player. 


I remembered a chat session with him when he admitted that he was a chick magnet. My friend who also had an experience in chatting with him told me that he didn't have any romantic feeling towards any of his female blogger friends and it wasn't his fault that they fall for him.

Damn him.

Another friend of mine reported that he allegedly admitted that he was single and this was during December 2009.

I found out that a girl was romantically involved with him through clues and hints found on her blog.

But later last month a friend told me that he was...... gulped....... already engaged during Raya Haji 2009 (November) and yet he is involved with this blogger girl. That blogger girl is 'read' to be emotional distressed as it seems from her writings, that her man was engaged. Hahaha.

How messy can this thing get?

[to be continued]

jardin jirda 4

It took a lot of wit for her to outsmart her HR officer in obtaining the resume and I really appreciated her efforts.

This is the result of the investigation done by my fellow friend cum blogger from the resume.

Male.
Single.
Stay at P****k Jalil, Kuala Lumpur.
From B*****, **d**
Age: 25
Weight: 57kg
Height: 154cm

Height??? 154cm?

I was shocked! He was 8cm shorter than me!

But eventually I told him about this as being honest was always my weakness. Huhu. And I also said I accepted the way he is.

I decided to dismiss his shortcomings and looked at these pictures for comfort.

Will we be like this?

Or maybe like this?

See? Love blinds you.

One day he sent an sms to me saying that he was at Masjid Jamek lrt station and he wanted to go to Sentul Timur to meet me.

It made me stop cold at what I was doing at the time. And I stared mindlessness at the message in my hand phone. Dup dap dup dap,

Several minutes later did I finally reply his message saying that it was ok.

But he answered that it was too late (or maybe because I replied too late. Hoho) that he finally canceled his plans to meet me that night.

I didn't know if I was mad or relieved at that time. But he never requested to meet me again after that day.

But I have.

[to be continued]

jardin jirda 3

We sms more frequently but only when he initiated it. He'd start sending me an sms near mid-night. And sometimes the sms session would stop when one of us fall asleep. Maybe around 3am? hik hik hik

There was one time when I wasn't online at all because I was busy joining a workshop at my office. He'd have the nerve to sms me during that time. The sms read. "on9?"

I thought there was some emergency he wanted to tell me so I secretly got myself online during the workshop and buzzed him.

It was false alarm. DANG!

This happened a couple of times and I always fell for it. Double DANG!!!

Finally a breakthrough on his identity and physical attributes came. I was excited.

A fellow member also a blogger told me that he once applied a job at her company. His resume is still with the HR department and I asked her a favor.

No, the job was not at IKEA. =p

I asked her to find out the contents of the resume. Do a background check on him because I suspected that he was a married man since he still remained a mystery to me despite the YM/sms sessions.

I didn't trust my heart to believe him.

[to be continued]

jardin jirda 2

We began to YM more frequently.

My first sms to him was the day that he was sick and he posted his self photo of him in his TOTO on his blog. Blog? Yes, he is a blogger too. But our followers were barely over 100 during that time. Unknown and nuffnangless.  But he never posted his real name nor full pictures of his face in the internet.

It dawned to me that he was hiding something.

But it was too late. I fell for him. Hard.

[to be continued]

PS: Ku masih cuti dari blog tatkala ini. Jangan amik hati klu komen tak berbalas dan ku tak blogwakling. Huhuhu.

jardin jirda 1

[English entry... hope nobody reads this.]

'jardin jirda' .... title of an email dated 01-Feb-2009. It was sudden. Didn't expect to receive it so soon as my mind was preoccupied with other things. My friend just met with an accident and I was rushing to meet him at the hospital.

"ni ha gambar aku,....kang ko bg yang ko lak... padam pas tgk." the email read.

First thing I noticed about the picture was his lips. Pinkish, a sign of good health. =)

The next day we continued corresponding through email. He had this way of infuriating you and at the same time captivate you with words. We were to exchange pictures and he already did his part of the bargain. I was still looking for one.

How did it end? Lemme start with how it started.

As a new blogger, I was bent out into appreciating my fellow readers by awarding them with personalized pens bought from Bandung. I had their blogger names inscribed on the pens. I just had to make it special, rare and one of a kind. And he was one of the 20 lucky bloggers to receive it.

And to receive it, I had to ask for his address. I never did expect that a war of the emails would be initiated between us. It started with an innocent email mainly to inform me that he finally found out what my name is. Zarah.

"hai ZARAHHHH....HA HA HA..(11 Jan 2009)"
and the email's title was 'keh keh..' on a Sunday. I wasn't online at that time. Only on Monday did I notice.

But then I received another annoying email during Monday at my office.

"Fizik zarah ialah satu cabang fizik yang mengkaji juzuk-juzuk asas untuk jirim dan sinaran, serta saling-saling tindaknya. Cabang ini juga digelarkan "fizik tenaga tinggi" kerana banyak zarah asas tidak wujud di dalam alam semula jadi pada keadaan yang biasa. Walaupun begitu, zarah asas boleh dicipta dan dikesan semasa pelanggaran bertenaga antara zarah-zarah yang lain, sebagaimana yang telah dibuat di dalam pemecut-pemecut zarah.




Namun begitu sifat zarah yang suka bermain blog masih lagi belum dikaji para saintis...dikhuatiri zarah ini adalah spesis zarah yang baru.....dan penemuan ini adalah amat menakjubkan sekali....mungkin zarah ini patut dinamakan sempena orang yang menemuinya....ya..mungkin....kita akan mengetahui selanjutnya sifat zarah ini di dalam blog beliau.....setakat ini hanya satu sahaja sifat yang ditemui pada zarah ini......




iaitu...




zarah ini suka dipuji....." (12 Jan 2009)

My expression when I read this email was first of horror which later turned into awe that a guy would take all this trouble to write me this.

I was all too ready for a counter-attack. But I grew weary and he had his last say before I decided to ignore his last email.

A week passed. 'bila aku busan' was the title of the next email from him. I opened it expecting another long yet annoying email. Instead it read:

"aku rasa nak lempang-lempang ko....."(19 Jan 2009)

I was tongue-tied. Mad. Confused. Surprised. I replied, he replied back, I got infuriated even more and I suspected he noticed. He eventually began to butter up.

Lastly he emailed.

"weh....aku add ko kat ym.. x nak approve cakap..aku nak kensel." (21 Jan 2008)

I asked why should I add him after all he brought me was misery and lot of tongue-lashing arguments , email style.

"aku seronok kaco ko...."(21 Jan 2008)

"saja nak bagi ko seronok....kesian kena buli... hari lain aku bg ko nangis lak.... (22 January 2009)

True to his word. These very words hunted me to this day.


At that time, I just started working at a government sector near Bangsar. I was still adapting to the new surrounding and my new office. This kind of attraction had loosen my stress quite a bit.

Heck! I didn't even have yahoo messenger installed in my office PC yet! What if YMing is banned by my company?

I was desperate to find out and tried all means to install the software onto my PC. Feverishly, I knew deep down that I was anticipating the moment I'd see him online in 'real-time'. His id was approved immediately as soon as I got online. And I was online in my car with my laptop which I brought from home. There was a wireless connection at that area. I didn't have internet at home.

We bantered a bit online before I had to resume work at 2:00pm.

Online only during lunch hour. Why? Because unfortunately the internet connection at my office sucked and I sticked to emailing.

We exchanged pictures.

After more arguing and I was at wits end and about to ignore him again he suddenly did the unpredicted.

"ni no aku... 01X-XXXXXX. ada papa kontek le...jgn bg org. =} letih aku nak buka email." (2 Feb 2009)

At that moment, I felt that he was damn cute. Awww! It strike an arrow straight into my heart. A cupid's arrow?

[to be continued]

PS: Some-one told me to finish this story. Ini entri berjadual. Aku tengah bercuti dari blog. =)

Ex-Skandal Maya Aku Bakal Didedahkan.

Ini bukan ex-skandal aku ye. Ini cuma aku dengan Opaq dan sekadar gambar hiasan. Hik hik hik. 

Tajuk sengaja nak buat ex'skandal' maya ku gabra. ehehe.. Harap berjaya kot. Itupon kalau die masih baca blog aku neh.

Klik untuk tumbesaran yang sihat.

Ade beberapa perkara yang ku nak cakap sebelum ku bertolak pada pukul 10:00 malam nanti ke tempat yang akan ku ceritakan minggu depan, InsyaAllah. Aku takkan berada di hadapan PC atau laptop yang ada kemudahan internet selama tiga hari ku berada di sana. Huhuhu.. takleh nak lepas gian pada blog arrr!

1. Bapa aku ade cakap die akan pergi ke negara China tapi seyes aku tak percaya. Ingatkan die bergurau! Tapi petang tadi dalam pukul 1:00 petang aku mendapat sms dari luar negara yang berbunyik "Dah sampai di shenzhen" . Hahaha. Aku rasa lawak lak. Aku cuba kol bapa aku tapi ade bunyik pompuan yang cakap

"Harap maaf talian anda telah disekat".

Opps.. wa lupa bayar bill. Hik hik hik. Seb baik mak ade kol tadi bagi mengesahkan bapa aku bercuti ke China bersama kawan-kawan die. Ceh. Ku terasa macam ibu2 plak risaukan bapa aku.

2. Aku telah membuat 6 entri berjadual bermula esok sampai ahad yang bakal mendedahkan kisah sebenar  aku dengan ex-skandal aku. Dari saat aku kenal sampai saat perlakuan die yang tak brapa besh didedahkan satu persatu. Aku telah moderatekan komen. Hehe. Aku rasa ramai yang kenal die tuh sepa. Entri dalam bahasa inggeris. Opps.. =p

3. Aku masih setia pada disqus tapi ku dapati ramai yang komen tak letak link. Aku telah tukarkan format komen kepada yang biasa supaya aku leh detect korang punya blog. Minta maaf bebanyak, ku belum berkesempatan untuk membalas lawatan kamu. huhuhu. Lepas cuti eaaaaaa!!!! =)

4. Last but least...... Salam Maulidur Rasul 1431H buat kamu semua. Hehe.

Jumpa kamu minggu depan ye!! muahhhhhhhhhhhhzzzzzzzzzzz!!!

Setelah dua minggu ku cash out lagi nuffnang aku. Weeee!

Ah.. dah kembali kosong. Nak tahu berapa lama plak kali ini baru leh cash out lagi. Hik hik hik.

Cash-out terakhir pada entri ini. 09 Feb 2010.

Kalo aku boleh.. korang pon boleh. Sila terjah blog ini untuk mengetahui tips-tips penting untuk menjadikan blog korang tempat menjana duit serta meningkatkan trafik. Aku da ketagih dengan blog mamat neh. Hehehe. =p 

Kau bangsa ape?

Aku dok sorang-sorang menghirup hot chocolate dari Oldtown White Coffeehouse kat Jalan Yap Kwan Seng. Tengah tunggu member lain datang dalam 2-3 orang.

Ade hal nak dibincangkan.

Depa neh memang janji melayu betul la. Janji nak datang pukul 8:00 malam. Ini dah pukul 8:30 malam tak sampai-sampai.

Aku hirup lagi hot chocolate aku. Aku jenis tak minum kopi atau nescafe kang tak tido lak aku. Hehehe.

Mereka pon sampai dalam 5 minit. Masing-masing mengambil tempat kat meja aku. Buka laptop, buka buku catatan dan amik order. Aku dok diam. Bengang.

Tibe-tibe seorang dari mereka bersuara.

"Jard, kau bangsa ape?"

Aku senyum. La apsal die tanya benda neh plak.

"Aku ikut bapa aku la kot. Bangsa Bajau".

Lelaki itu senyum.

Aku naikkan kening. Konfius.

Yang lain pon turut senyum.

"Kenapa korang senyum cam orang gila neh?" Aku tak tahan nak tanya.

"Dalam IC kau tulis ape?" 






Aiyark!!!

Tersenyum baca ini. =)

Sila klik link ini. 

Private Number 2

Ini entri susulan dari entri ini. 

Si En private number kol aku malam itu jugak sejurus selepas die membaca blog aku berkenaan dirinya.

Serius aku maluuu........ hik hik hik...

Aku sedikit terkejut apabila die soal pasal entri tuh jadi aku terus cakap aku ade hal dan letak telefon. Borak-borak tak sampai 15 saat kot.

Arggh...... sungguh tak sopan kan? =p

Hari itu die ade mencuba ABC Fradoo kat Seksyen 2, Shah Alam. Die kol aku untuk bertanyakan tempat itu.

Die sempat menegur cik Erina yang pada masa yang sama sedang mengendalikan gerai bapa die itu. Konon die ada sampaikan salam kat JARD. Jard akulah tuh kan? Hehe.. 

Hah!

Apa lagi! Aku terus kol Erina untuk bertanyakan tentang lelaki yang makan ABC itu.

Bertalu-talu soalan yang ku tanyakan.

Die dengan siapa malam tuh?

Die duduk mana?

Die hisap rokok tak?

Die ensem tak?

Die tinggi tak?

Errr.. die gelap tak?

Heeeeeeeeee.......... jawapan si Erina semua positif. Eh.. ehhhh...... gatai plak aku. Adesshh.. 

=p

Rasanya ada entri susulan tak lepas neh?

PS: harap die baca entri neh.. hik hik hik

PS lagik: Malam neh ku tak dapat nak online. hoh! Ada program

Bagaimana update di blog akan terus update secara auto kat Facebook dan Twitter.

Aku selama ini asalkan ku hapdet.... die terus akan menaikkan status update aku kat Twitter dan Facebook secara auto. Aku tak payah nak login akaun twitter dan facebook neh. Besh kan?

Akaun twitter da lama ku tak jenguk pon. Wakaka. yang ku tahu die sentiasa ada updates. =p

Ape rahsianya?

Inilah rahsianya...

Sila klik gambar untuk ke site. 

Mr. K pernah bertanyakan hal ini kat WALL facebook aku.

Camne nak buat? Meh Jard nak ajar neh.

Korang pergi la ke site twitterfeed.com dengan hanya klik pada gambar kat atas tuh. Dah sampai ke site, sila klik "Register Now".

Nanti korang akan ke paparan macam kat bawah. Isi mana yang patut.

Da tuh... klik "Create Account".

Korang dikehendaki masukkan link FEEDS blog korang.

Buat macam ini lah senang. Isi tempat kosong dengan URL blog korang diikuti perkataan kat belakang tuh.

http://_(url blog)_/feeds/posts/default

Sila test dengan cara mengeklik "test rss feed". Boleh jalan ke tak?

Kalau ok......... klik "Continue to Step 2".

Kalau korang ada kedua-dua akaun Twitter dan Facebook, kat sinilah korang nak pastikan feeds blog korang akan di autopublish kat kedua-dua akaun itu.

1. Klik Twitter akan ke paparan seperti di bawah. Klik je kotak yang warna BIRU tuh.

Korang akan ke site Twitter. Buat macam biasa. Heeee.. Kalau lupa password tuh.. jangan carik aku.

2. Klik Facebook. Prosedur die lebih kurang macam atas je. Tak perlu aku ajar kan?

Bila semua ini dah siap.

Maka siap lah. Hahaha.. Yang besh pasal Twitterfeed neh, ku dapat detect berapa klik per entri yang ku dapat dari twitter dan jugak facebook.

Ah, korang daftar lah dulu dan rasailah sendiri. Hik hik hik.


PS: Lapar roti canai.

Terkejut blog ini diterjah blogger lain

Sambil Menyelam Sambil Minum Air

Ku mendapati blog ku menjadi bualan kat blog en eyriqazz. Hehehe. Terkejut beruk aku tika buat rondaan tak berjadual tadi. Apsal ku tak perasan entri neh ek? Patut la trafik aku semalam banyak semacam je. 

Lagi menghiburkan hati ini pabila ku baca komen-komen untuk entri ini.

Link takyah letak.. die da dikenali ramai pon (*nada tak berapa nak dengki.. ehehe)

Joe.. kamu bengong ke hapa. Mempersoalkan bila aku nak kawen. haha. Malu ai tau. Citttttt! Jawapan aku.. esok pun boleh, diminta kepada sesiapa sila hantar rombongan meminang. Cepat!

http://cikti-mm.blogspot.com/

Hehe.. kembang plak baca komen neh dari cik Ti. Tak abes-abes cakap aku pemes. Errr.. bukan blog ke yang pemes? Aku nyer followers sket je.... aku segan orang cakap aku pemes amos neh.. huk huk =p

http://ezzati-mytruelife.blogspot.com/

Wargghhh.. zati.. my ex-unimate dan jugak merangkap BFF. Ko memang tak malu. wakakaka.. Neh hah.. ku promote link kamu. 

http://biskutsarkas.blogspot.com/

Budak chumel neh lagi pemes dari aku wei! Haha.. dapat pujian dari die merupakan kebanggaan bagi aku. OMG.. baru berumur 17 tahun.. patut ar blog pun chumel macam tuannya. =p

Waahh...........  en eyriqazz...... entri ini boleh dijadikan entri terjah untuk kontes kamu tak? hik hik..

Aku sarankan kepada mana-mana blogger baru yang nak trafik, sila menyertai kontes  en eyriqazz. kat entri neh......... Die menghadiahkan WANG RINGGIT tuu!!! Lumayan! Lumayan!

Blogger neh pemes sebab rajin buat entri2 TERJAH. Die terjah bukan sebarang blogger.. die berani terjah blogger-blogger pemes yang lain. Memang trademark blog die la.. si tukang TERJAH. wakakaka..

PS: Aku kembang semangkuk lagi.. alahai!

Surat aku untuk pertandingan menulis surat kepada perdana menteri 2010

Satu pertandingan menulis surat kepada PM telah dilancarkan pada 12hb Januari 2010 dan tarikh tutupnya dilanjutkan ke 19hb Mac 2010. Tapi malangnya penyertaan aku tak memenuhi syarat yang telah ditetapkan oleh penganjur.

Tahniah kepada pihak penganjur iaitu Kementerian Penerangan, Komunikasi dan Kebudayaan (KPKK), Suruhanjaya Komunikasi dan Multimedia Malaysia (SKMM), Pos Malaysia Berhad (PMB) dengan kerjasama Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia (KPM) kerana berjaya mendapat sambutan yang hangat sampai terdapat lebih daripada 200,000 penyertaan dari seluruh negara.

Ah... apsal aku nyer penyertaan tak diterima? Malah ditolak bulat2?

Sebab pertandingan terbuka kepada pelajar2 sekolah rendah dan sekolah menengah ja. Mana aci! Hoh! Aku pun nak kongsikan aspirasi aku kepada PM!

Korang jadi penilai surat aku lah. Berapa korang bagi? Sila abaikan kesilapan tatabahasa. =p

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Ke Hadapan YAB Perdana Menteri,

Aku tahu bukan kamu yang membaca surat ini. Mesti YAB minta orang bawahan untuk membacanya. Tapi tidak apalah. Yang penting mesej ini sampai.

Aku bersyukur dapat hidup aman dan sentosa di tanah Malaysia ini.

Setiap negara ada kepincangannya. Tiada satu negara yang sempurna. Aku terima hakikat itu.

Tapi YAB nak cadangan untuk mengekalkan keharmonian negara kan? 1Malaysia?

Mari aku kongsikan cadangan aku dalam bentuk point. Boleh kan?

1. Aku nak Malaysia adakan Summer Camp. Ok. Malaysia memang tiada musim lain. Asyik panas je sepanjang tahun. Tapi cuti budak-budak sekolah kan lama. Sebulan tu wahai YAB oiiii. Dari budak-budak belajar merempit dan jadi bohsia atau bohjan, baik mereka manfaatkan masa itu dengan menghadiri kem berbentuk kebudayaan. Silibus? hah! Carilah aku! Aku kan free! ha ha

2. Karnival sukan rakyat. Bola sepak? Jangan. Bola keranjang? No. No. Aku nak permainan tradisional sahaja. Silat, sepak takraw, apa-apa lah. Mesti YAB lebih tahu sebab YAB lagi lama hidup di bumi Malaysia berbanding aku. Ngee.

3. Pertandingan pakaian seragam tradisional. Berapa ramai yang tahu pasal pakaian tradisional yang wujud kat Malaysia neh? Setahu aku, baju ala 'tube' tahulah!

Tiga cukuplah. Kalau lebih-lebih takut YAB tak mampu nak buat plak sebab tiga cadangan ini sudah cukup baik untuk dilaksanakan. Melentur buluh biarlah dari rebungnya. Nak rakyat yang berkualiti, sila terapkan nilai-nilai murni dari mereka kecil lagi. Moga-moga masalah sosial dan perkauman tidak berlaku selepas ini. 


Sekian terima kasih YAB.


Rakyat didahulukan, pencapaian diutamakan.

Salam hormat dariku,

Cik Jard The Great.

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PS: Buka pusat summer camp macam masyuk je. Belum ade lagi kat Malaysia. Hmmm... Nak namakan Pusat Kem Jardness boleh?

"Aku nak belikan benda berharga RM300 untuk kau."

"Aku nak belikan benda berharga RM300 untuk kau."

Rakan sekerja aku berkata demikian setelah menjumpai brosur SOGO di atas meja ku.

Aku melihat barang ape yang dimaksudkannya.

Jari tunjuk die ditujukan kat gambar barangan itu sambil tersengih-sengih macam beruk.

"Ish. Buat apa! Baik belikan untuk bini hang je! Tak baik membazir untuk orang lain" aku mengomel.

"Ala RM300 ja. Duit aku. Suka hati aku lah"

"Yelah tu." aku tak percaya die sanggup buat macam tuh.

"Tapi dengan syarat ko pakai kat rumah aku je la. Ha ha ha ha. "

Die cepat-cepat lari sebelum aku kejar dengan niat nak lempang die dengan selipar jepun aku.


Tau tak apa benda yang berharga RM300 tuh?

Sila skrol ke bawah..






Lagi..

bukan ini...

Lagi...

Lebih kurang camneh rupa die........

Cittttttttt!

Adakah ini gangguan seksual di tempat kerja?

Aku rindu sama oranglidi. Apehal lu private blog?

Sekian sahaja entri yang agak emo dari aku.

T______________T

Faktor usia bukan ukuran untuk mendirikan rumahtangga

Aku terpanggil nak buat entri ini berkenaan kahwin di waktu muda atau mungkin di waktu masih belajar. Adalah seseorang yang memberi ilham ini kepada ku untuk membuat entri neh. Haha. Don't worry, your secret is save with me.

Tapi pengakuan jujur si kawan terhadap pengalaman dia pasal cinta dan kahwin membuatku memikir dengan lebih serius pasal hal kahwin.

Sebelum ini aku tak nak fikir sangat. Maybe sebab itulah ku lambat bertemu jodoh. Asyik kerja merejek je. (rejek? wakakaka... ) Ok. Aku tipu. Bukan rejek. Aku jual mahal! (Agagaga... pengakuan berani mati!)

Hati aku ini susah diketuk agaknya. Bukan sekali ku pernah dilamar. Siap ada yang belikan kondo lagi konon nak membina mahligai bahagia bersamaku. Haha. Tapi akhirnya die dok sorang je kat kondo die tu.

Aku pergi la siasat pasal kes kahwin muda neh. Entri neh adalah contoh seorang wanita yang kahwin semasa die belajar. Sila-sila baca kalau berminat.

Pada pendapat aku, tak salah kahwin muda.

Bak kata peribahasa "melentur buluh biarlah dari rebungnya". Macam mana ku nak aplikasikan peribahasa ini dengan situasi kahwin muda? Rasa tanggungjawab antara pasangan yang baru kahwin semasa muda boleh dibentuk. Selain itu bila da sama-sama belajar, nanti bila da abes boleh sama-sama carik tempat tinggal dan pekerjaan yang sesuai untuk mereka berdua kekal bersama.

Sebagai contoh, aku yang da kerja neh. Kalau bertemu jodoh dengan lelaki yang kerja jauh akan jadi satu hal plak. Samada lelaki itu kena berkorban untuk kerja di tempat dekat dengan aku atau sebaliknya. Takpun perkahwinan jarak jauh plak akan berlaku.

Tapi kalau da kahwin sebelum bekerja, proses pencarian kerja akan lebih tertumpu pada satu kawasan je untuk kesenangan kedua-dua pasangan. Hehe.

Apapun faktor usia bukan juga ukuran dalam perkahwinan yang berjaya tetapi keinginan dan keupayaan pasangan untuk melayari kehidupan yang dibina dengan MATANG dan penuh tanggungjawab. Itu yang PENTING. Kalau da rasa bersedia nak kahwin, dipersilakan. Jangan plak kamu berkahwin hanya kerana nafsu dan desakan cinta tetapi haruslah kerana berSEDIA. Ade jugak yang berkahwin sebab merasai alam perkahwinan ini rasa lagi besh dan penuh nikmat berbanding hidup membujang. Plss.. plsss. jangan fikir camneh. Tak matang ok.

Orang yang nak kahwin neh kenalah bersedia dari segi

MENTAL
FIZIKAL
KEWANGAN

Dan yang pasti, masing-masing baik si lelaki atau pompuan perlu ada nilai dan peranan untuk menjamin kebahagian berumahtangga.

Banyak kes perceraian berlaku sebab tak mainkan peranan dan pentingkan diri sendiri. Atau bila dah kahwin tuh.. terjumpa plak orang lain yang die rasa lebih sesuai dengan dirinya. Mulalah rasa menyesal dan mulalah buat hal contohnya CURANG.

Yep, wanita yang paling rapat dengan ku dan paling ku sayang sampai ku sanggup gadai nyawa pernah mengalami krisis perkahwinan bila si suami curang. Tapi masing-masing kena mainkan peranan untuk menyelamatkan perkahwinan itu.

So pesanan ku kepada yang nak kahwin tak kira die muda ke tua, selamilah dulu hati budi bakal pasangan anda. Pastikan pilihan anda tepat dan direstui mak ayah kedua-dua pihak dan yang penting kamu sudah bersedia. Janganlah terburu-buru. Kalau ada jodoh, takkan ke mana. Hehe. (alasan baik punya kenapa aku jual mahal selama ini.. ) =p

This I have to ask........

How often do you find the right person?

ONCE.



PS: aku nak tinguk muvi neh!! Sepa ade! Jual kat aku bole?

Melalui blog ku dapat kenal ramai lelaki sengal...

Kenapa ek?

1. Penyuk........ die wujud sejak awal pembabitan aku dalam blog. Antara lima terawal follower blog aku yg picisan neh.. siot ja ko penyuk! Ahahaha.. (malas mo letak link.. padan muka. Heh!)

Die saja post komen neh kat wall supaya ku letak kat blog. Nah! Beres! ehehe...

2. Kazen Momong - kazen lelaki kepada minah bernama momong. Jumpa masa mini gathering dengan bakal-bakal adik ipar aku kat sini. Seyes poyo mamat neh. hahaha.

Pesanan ringkas buat mamat neh. Kalo nak porfular, di sini (blog aku) bukan tempatnya. Sila buat blog sendiri. =)

3. Debik-debuk....... kalau jumpa komen-komen yang pelik kat wall fesbuk aku.. die ar tuh. Da lama tak aktif blog. Dulu die satu  geng dengan Penyuk.

4. Yunus Badawi...... tak abes-abes nak pasangkan aku dengan duda kaya. Mana wei? ehehe..

5. Joegrimjow... die dikategorikan sengal jugak la sebab kejap panggil akak jard.. kejap panggil jard. ish.. ishhh.... stick to one laaaa........ahaha..

6. oranglidi..... ah.. pemes neh.. pengomen tegar... apsal lu private blog wei? takda pon.. huhuhu.. =p

7. Bonekaxsakit........... ish.. sengal betul.. delete blog sebab cinta die ditolak awek blogger. ehehehe.. tambah sakit lak tu.. cpt2 sihat la ye.. =p

8. Bean Moreno....... Kenal dari acara Byond Astro dan seterusnya kat blogger gathering kat the mines bulan lepas.. Percubaan die nak chat dengan aku dalam bahasa Sabah baku memang tak boleh BLAH laaaaaa..... ahahahhaa...

9. Aus.......... sengal dowh...... boleh jadi playboy yang berjaya. Ku kenal die di tempat yang sama ku kena dak Bean tu.. Gambar neh ku cilok dari entri neh. Antara entri die yang paling besh setakat neh sebab lawak! Ehehehe..

10.  Sepa ek??????? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm............................. ku tengah pikir nak letak sepa lagi.. ehehe.. takde kottt.......... (abe long dan saypool? )


Ok... itu je la entri aku pada hari neh........ ehehehe......... sambil2 promote mereka-mereka di atas.. nnt nak buat versi pompuan sengal plak...

PS: aku da jumpa semua lelaki kat atas neh kecuali debik-debuk dengan oranglidi..... ehehehe....

Warghh.. Hebat english die...

Ku kopipes sebijik dari sini.....


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Love is a general word, 
Love is something we hoped for,
Something we need,
Something we can't live without.

However, in my n3 this time, i'm gonna tell about the love i found after i was million miles away from him....you could say, an ocean separates us.

That person is my dad....



My dad has became my greatest inspiration in my life, him and also my mother.
But the one that lead the greatest impact in my life is him.

When my siblings and I were small, my dad and mom raised us to believe that this world is easy and that as long as we study hard, everything will fall into place.

But that's no where close to reality..

My dad, he wanted us to feel pain as well.
Suffered, and to understand the state he is in now.
It took us a long time to understand what he actually meant,
but now it seems like is has became too little too late.

That's just the introdution to my point..hehe....this is going to be a looooong n3.

Ehem..ehem...back to my story.

When i was small, i had always hated my dad.
For being him, for always getting angry for no reason,
for never really cared for what i had achieved,
making me feel like as though i'm not loved.
He had always cared for my other siblings more than me.
Whenever they make mistakes, it seems as though it is easy for him to forgive them,
but when i made the slightest mistake, 
He'd let me have it the worse.
I still remember the many slaps i got from him.
On one single night.
I can't even count how many i've received from him.

I also cannot accept the fact that he had a REALLY hard time in believing me.
He wouldn't believe that i have extra classes on holidays.
He wouldn't believe it if i didn't do anything wrong.
You could say he was constantly at my back, watching me, waiting for me to do something that upsets him.
That really annoys me.

But, little did i know,
He was the one who really cared so much for me.
When I first got my SPM results, he was the first to call me.
When i got accepted to Labuan Matriculation College, he was the one who wanted to see me off,
he even helped me with all the preparation.

Last year, in Ramadhan, i was kinda low in cash,
and i would only buy Nasi Lemak that cost RM2 a day to break my fast,
Then I almost cried when he sent me that sms..

"Sudah bank-in RM200. Beli lah buah-buahan. Baru sihat."

Those simple words made me believed, he really cares about me.

Like they say,
The GAJAH in front you cannot see,
The SEMUT across the ocean you can see.

My dad worked his life to make our life better,
The reason he had always come home in bad mood was because he has to figure out how to pay this and how to pay that,
In the meantime he is also thinking of how we are going to eat for that day.
He's constantly on the move, trying to figure out how to pay for the luxuries we asked for, 
He even opened up a business,
so that he will also have money to feed us even though he is retired,
But even that was not a complete success,
As the strong wind had ruined the shop,
and barely any customers come now, 
as it is dangerous,
and not family friendly.

But he's sick,
And it's breaks my heart to see him work that hard.

In one day, he'll eat lots and lots of pills, medicine for the pain,
The pain he got, by raising us.
When he bled, I was watching the television,
When he cried, I was laughing with my friends,
And when he was in pain, I was the one holding the knife on his throat...
He had sacrificed his whole life for us,
he dedicated himself to watch us become successful in life,
and have it easier than he did when he was young.

He never wanted us to feel poverty.

And that's why, I had come to know the real father i have.
The one I hated so much, had become the one I never want to let go,
The one I never want to see suffer,
The one I want to pay back to,
And last but not least, 
The one I wanted to care for all my life.

I love you dad.
Forgive me...


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Pernah dengar pasal 'rivalry between sibling'? Atau dalam BM.. persaingan sihat antara adik-beradik?

Hands down. Aku kalah dari segi penulisan dalam ENGLISH.

Mantap la ENGLISH die. Aku KALAH.

Inilah entri yang adik perempuan aku masukkan untuk kontes en Joe.  Dan.. inilah adik aku yang jadi REBUTAN bakal adik ipar aku yang terdiri dari blogger jugak.. hahaha.. Abe long dan Sapool. (Poyo je kan aku? ahaha)

Aku rasa adik aku nan seorang neh cepat matang la. Lebih cepat dari aku. Wakakaka..


InsyaAllah.. harapan famili terhadap adik ku neh tinggi jugak la. Semoga die mencapai cita-citanya menjadi doktor haiwan.

=p

PS: Dad, I love you too.

Private Number

Die pandai. Die kol aku guna private number. Tak nak aku trace die kot. Biar die je yang carik aku. Not the way around. Hmmm... tak pernah sms.

Nama pon die tak bagi. Die bagi satu nama je. Itupon belum pasti itu adalah nama betul die.

Hmmmm.... ntah ar....

aku tertarik dengan die. Bukan sebagai kekasih. Mungkin. Oh tidak. Ku jenis sukar mo jatuh hati.


Tapi aku nak kenal die. Nak jumpa! Yelah, da pandai bergayut dengan aku kat telefon, tapi wajah die blom ku tatap. Mase die kol takkan aku tak angkat kot. Sebab nama tak kuar. Kot-kot bank/opis yang kol. Dang. Pandai betul die. Hahaha. Macam kerja orang gila je kan? Apehal guna private number brader? Bikin wa saspen ja.

Tibe-tibe ku teringat satu peristiwa. Tak lama dulu.

Aku dok demam kat rumah. MC la. Hmmm, MC yang ku beli dari sebuah klinik yang memang jual MC, bukan merawat. Hehe. Ku berym kejap dengan die, ku ngadu henfon buat hal lagi. Die siap tawarkan perkhidmatan nak baiki henfon aku dan siap nak pasang GPS lagi.

Wow! Ku teruja. Dapat free plak tuh!

Tapi dengan syarat. Ku kena turun ke tempat kerja die hari tuh jugak. Nanti die tolong install. Die minta datang tengah hari itu. Aku mula rasa berdebar. Biar betul! Nak kena jumpa die hari tuh jugak ke? Yelah, die kata, sebab takut hari lain die kena merantau. (merantau neh maksudnya outstation kot..huhu!)

Aku mengelat. Nervous punya pasal. Haha. Macam-macam alasan aku bagi supaya last-last ku tak payah gi jumpa die.


Sekarang aku menyesal.

Die kol lagi petang tadi setelah sekian lama. Kali ini aku memberanikan diri nak ajak die keluar pada esok hari. Die ade agenda lain plak dan tak lama lepas tuh bakal merantau lagi.

Uish....


Benci dengan orang misteri macam neh. Mesti ku kena tunggu  lama lagi baru die kol aku balik. Waa.. cam mengharap! Ape jadah! wakakaka.. =p



PS: Ape  motif aku letak Rashidi Ishak kat atas tuh? Sebab ada pada satu masa die letak gambar die kat YM, nampak gambar die terus ku teringat kat Rashidi Ishak. Ade iras-iras laaa.... hahaha..

Aku kembang semangkuk

Die blogger jugak tapi die tak pernah komen blog aku. Hehehe. Aku pon tak kenal die neh siapa.

Dapat komen macam neh kat wall fesbuk aku... buatku rasa dihargai. Kembang siot beb! Haha. Tatau nak cakap ape da. Memang ku tgh speechless la.

Nways, thanks to all for reading (sliently or not) my blog yg cuma picisan je neh. The sky is the limit. Kah kah kah.

PS: aku da boleh cash out earnings nuffnang yg kedua setelah cash-out yg pertama pada 2hb Feb ari tuh. =p

The day I got "BOOBS"

(in the mood for some story-telling)

Based on a true story but it's crap none-the-less.

Everyone has memories of their childhood and I'm not excluded. Most girls start up with boyish figures in their pre-teens. Flat-chested and light on their feet. And faces full with tiny freckles and zits starting to make way on foreheads and cheeks.


But as a kid, you don't care about this stuff. All you care about is having fun and making trouble without getting caught. Hak hak hak. And yeah........ your body is HAIRLESS! Unaware of the effect of half-naked girls despite the age factor on men and boys alike, I had the habit running around the neighborhood in shorts. On a daily basis, right after school I'd be just wearing the top of my school uniform. ONLY.

Imagine playing in the playground without the skirt. No pants. Just the white 'baju".

I became the neighborhood sweetheart. Being the eldest daughter of the neighborhood's most influential man, ehem, my father, I was treated like royalty. But the problem was that there were no girls my age at that time. And I spent most of my childhood playing with the boys who are much older than me.

Ok, keep in mind. Flat chested and light on the feet.

I played football with them.

I played rugby. Yes, I had to jump on guys to keep them from touch-down. I actually tore a guy's shirt during the process. Haha.

I played hide-and-seek and 'kejar-kejaran'.

I raced with them on the streets and I usually won.

But the thing is, even though I seem to fit well with their tough activities, deep down I realized my physical appearance was slowly changing.

Mood swings started to come.

Waist started to shrink.

Some areas started to grow bigger.

Flat chested and light on the feet???




 My whole life changed the day my mom forced me to wear the small wonder called the BRA.


PS: I limited my activities with the guys after that and in exchange to that, my little brother became a messenger of love, passing me letters sent from the not-that secret admirers. Sigh. My picture then? Click here. 

Pernah terasa diri genius tak?

TV ku buang jauh-jauh.

Segala jenis bahan bacaan ku buang jauh-jauh.

Mase dalam meeting pagi tadi pon aku sempat siapkan 2 Puzzle. 

Henfon pon aku tak pandang da.

Agak-agak berapa lama ketagihan ini bertahan ek?

hehehehe..

Terima kasih jugak kepada pencipta Sudoku, banyak benda yang telah membuat otak ku bercelaru sejak akhir-akhir ini telah berjaya ku semat tanpa penyelesaian sebab sibuk menyelesaikan Sudoku. 

PS: Mood nak hapdet blog berkurang. Tapi sket je la........  =p

oh ya...... terima kasih kepada Boneka, Ah fatt dan Zati... jadi tempat luahan. hehehe..  

Bertunang pada 07 Mac 2010 =)

Si jejaka menghulurkan sejumlah wang kepada maknya.

"Nah! Mak  tolong belikan cincin. Aku sungguh-sungguh nak mengahwininya! Tak nak tunggu lama-lama nanti die menapause" Die menyatakan hasratnya dengan diselit sedikit lawak. Mak terpinga-pinga tapi dituruti jugak kehendak anak lelaki sulungnya itu.

Kedua-dua pihak telah bersetuju. Walaupun jarak usia agak ketara dengan umur wanita itu sedikit berumur dari si lelaki tapi majlis pertunangan mereka diteruskan jugak.

07 Mac 2010 merupakan tarikh keramat bagi mereka berdua.

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Uwaaaaaaaaaaa.................. bakal adik ipar aku lagi tua dari aku!!!

Dush! Kepala ku diketuk. Adik lelaki aku bersuara, "Ada ape pada umur?"

hoh. Insaf jap. hehehe..

Ku nak ucap Tahniah buat adik lelaki aku si Zuriwan Bin Naumul yang bakal melangsungkan pertunangannya dengan gadis pilihan hatinya pada 07 Mac 2010.  Majlis perkahwinan plak belum lagi ditetapkan, tapi die nak kalo boleh akhir tahun neh. ehehe.

Moga berbahagia sampai ke akhir hayat. Die da jumpa tulang rusuk kirinya. Hoh jeles!

PS: Ok, aku nak buat iklan carik suami lepas neh.Nantikan la entrinya esok.

telahpun dirisik.. bertunang bulan depan. =)

Si lelaki serba kekurangan. Berhenti belajar pada semester terakhir pengajian Degree di sebuah universiti tempatan. Mengambil keputusan untuk berkerja sendiri. Dan mempunyai sebuah kancil yang berumur lebih kurang 10 tahun.

Menyedari kekurangan yang ada pada dirinya, die bertekad jugak untuk merisik gadis pilihan hatinya. Gadis yang dok berjiran dengan rumah die selama ini. Hik hik hik...

Boleh kan aku bersambung di entri yang lain?

True Meaning of Love

[NOTE: Entri ini dipertandingkan dalam kontes Encik Joe. Marilah memeriahkan kontes ini!]

LOVE?

Banyak maksud bagi perkataan neh. Ku nak petik satu maksud je dari link neh. 

A person can be said to love an object, principle, or goal if they value it greatly and are deeply committed to it.

Ku tak reti cinta sesama manusia. Takda pengalaman buat mase neh la. Hik hik hik. So ku nak cerita 'cinta'kan benda lain, impersonal love. Ku nak citer pasal cita-cita dan keinginan. Mesti korang tahu kan peribahasa neh, "Di mana ada kemahuan, di situ ada jalan". Kalau dari segi cita-cita aku? Boleh la kot dikatakan tercapai dari segi kerjaya la. Hehe. Kerja da stabil, gaji pon riban.

Keinginan? Macam-macam heh! Tapi dalam entri neh aku teringin sangat nak makan kueh cempedak tak kira apa!

Meh ku simplify lagi maksud yang ingin ku sampaikan.

Kemahuan - Aku nak kueh cempedak.

Jalan berliku - Buah cempedak yang banyak ulat tapi isinya masih boleh diselamatkan. Jangan sangka benda yang tercemar tak boleh diselamatkan. Everyone or everything deserves a second chance. 

Cabaran - Mengatasi rasa kegelian dan ngilu.... sambil digelakkan oleh tuan rumah.

Cabaran yang dihadapi demi kuih cempedak yang diidamkan... Nampak tak ulat-ulat yang keluar merayap dari buah cempedak itu? huhu. Ku terpaksa pakai 'sarung tangan keselamatan'.

Aku dapat murah dari gerai buah seorang makcik kat pekan Bahau. Die bagi aku dua buah cempedak dengan harga RM3. Huhu. 

Cuma tuh jer la. Ade ulat.

Tapi tak semestinya semua isi die dicemari ulat kan? So ku terus berfikir positif.

Ku terpaksa menahan kegelian melihat ulat melompat-lompat sini sana. Fear factor beb. It's all in the HEAD!

Seb baik buah yang satu lagi BEBAS ulat. Senang kerja aku. ehehe..

Usaha tangga kejayaan.

Tengah sabar dan tabah mencungkil buah cempedak yang tak dicemari ulat. Huuuuuuuuu~

LOVE? Love the goal beb.

Demi keinginan dan kecintaan ku untuk memakan kueh cempedak walaupun buah die berulat, ku sanggup tekun dan berusaha (commited) untuk mendapatkannya.

Hasil.

Perut yang kenyang. Hehehehe... Tahu tak betapa seronoknya apabila hasil kerja keras kita dapat dirasai? 

PS: harap tak geli dengan entri neh. hak hak hak. Seyes, kueh tu bebas ulat. Joe, harap diterima entri neh. Ku da kering idea la beb.